Saturday, April 11, 2009

Peter's Journal: Saturday

I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep. Every time I close my eyes I see him . . . bloody, naked . . . dead.

I . . . I don't understand . . .

I don't have words . . . I want to die . . . I want to die.

Was it all for nothing? How can he be dead?

God seems so silent . . . if . . . there is a God . . .

What am I saying? I want to believe! But . . . I . . . I just don't understand . . .

I just don't understand . . .


1 comment:

brandyglows said...

This prayer is from Cedar Ridge's Lenten Devotions: The last day of Lent:

Oh God, breathe your new life into me! As I have looked deep inside myself, I know that so much needs to change; but I look to you for help and the power to live differently. I wait for you. Come Lord Jesus!

I was very excited about writing Peter's Journal, but now . . . I don't know if I am doing him, Jesus, and the Easter story justice. I pray that God blesses it and uses it in whatever way He sees fit. Amen.